altered sleep

that's not like me. I pride myself in my ability to sleep unconditionally. Most days though lately I wake up stressed. Today it was depressed. It must be the dreary day outside. Thunder and rain. No lightning and no downpour. Just blustery and grumble-y. I love lightning and pourning rain. A good day for coldplay's new album. But I feel sad. Maybe it's the holidays, the disconnectedness of being somewhere new, the funny schedule, a void. Missing my family I'm sure. And close friends. It always takes time to belong.