i want to fall in love. but i'm an idiot.

I'm an idealist and an introvert and love of people of all sorts-- diverse backgrounds styles etc. I love little old people. I'm indecisive, and laid back and content and simple. with an exhaustingly overactive mind. I love newness and travel, despise feeling stagnant. like science, outdoors, art, and water, sad songs and crying, but am absurdly cheerful. My favorite color is yellow and I love tulips and rain and all things that haunt. I daydream often and my night dreams are vivid, colorful, wildly bizzare and oft disturbing. Every one of my college roomates told me independently that i'm unlike anyone they've ever met. wasn't sure how to take that one any of the 3 times it occured:) my friends make fun of me for being the happiest person they know, most gullible, and for loving fruit to an insane extent. oh and seems to obvious in my life to even mention, but in case you don't know me at all, God and my family rate above anything i could ever mention.

eeeverybody. i like people. specially funny people and weird ones. and who are honest. or creative. able to be themselves and embrace all the messed-uppedness it humanly entails. and truthfully i like wholesome genuine people a lot too. perhaps because i myself am all of these things... why's it always ultimately about ourselves? lame.


thanking Jesus for giving a crap about crap like me, watching beck dance on the mixed business video, everything outdoors, reading, natureness, cooking, writing, art, running, pondering, water, music, riding my bike, travel, tofu, learning, siblings, Bible, old people, solitude, cultures, humility, green tea, eating every meal possible with chopsticks, saving the children, and hopefully adopting one day. hopefully being a nurse somewhere that really needs it one day.


makes me float-- is occasionally all that keeps me sane; Beck, The Shins, The Strokes, The Beatles, Jars of Clay, Chris Rice, Weezer, Rooney, Nickel Creek, Guster, The White Stripes, ELO, The Thrills, Oasis, Ben Kweller, Gorillaz, Counting Crows, The Natural History, Switchfoot, Queen, Better Than Ezra, Franz Ferdinand, The Flaming Lips, Pete Yorn, Coldplay, Juanes, Patty Griffin, Wilco...

Gardenstate, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Girl Interrupted, A Beautiful Mind, Tommy Boy, Rushmore, Gladiator, Princess Bride, Requiem for a Dream , Finding Neverland, Napoleon Dynamite, The Sandlot, Romy and Michelle's High School Reunion, I Heart Huckabees, Mickey Blue Eyes...

too endlessly fascinating and soul draining. but i end up crying everytime i turn it on.

Well besides Jesus Christ: Mother Teresa, Aunt Cheryl, Mrs. Kinder, Kathy, Ruth C., Cousin, LA, Mel, Char, Les and Bobby, P & L, Grandma J, old fit Japanese people, and anyone who writes incredible music and lyrics and sings too . writing skills always impress me.

Good poignant literature that hits at what I could never as perfectly articulate: Dostoevsky is a genious: Brothers Karamazov, Crime and Punishment, Notes From Underground. Also love Mere Christianity (and all C.S. Lewis), The Gift Nobody Wants, the Hot Zone, Evidence Not Seen, Abba's Child, The Jungle, The Hiding Place, The Man Who Was Thursday, The Scarlet Letter, Pilgrim's Progress, Every Day Apocalypse, Ray Bradbury stuff. The Bible! National Geographic (not a book but killer cool), Blue Like Jazz, Girl Meets God,