God made us, and he is still working on us:)

spent more that 4 hours with char on the phone. love her. talked about our "constitution"s:) she and mom. simple. black/white. take what comes and do it. determination and sanity. don't panic, don't freak out. memeldad aren't so lucky. constant churn of overanalyzation, static of incessant thought of downward turning billowing ideas. i consider myself an optimist, and though ever was a happy child, also a worrier. tendency towards despair and terror. panic, definitely. fight to resist these waves of sheer terribleness. i did my best to keep my head. it was grass stained jeans and incompletes and... you think about yourself too much and you ruin who you love... so jealous of momchartypes and fear perrylyds lean much towards my/our self-berating tendencies. poor kids. must show them much love. some of us that self-love/acceptance doesn't come so naturally. always always envied char's quality, though granted once hated her confidence now see it a pure gem that it is. how to change the way you think? jamie. it's the the hardest thing to do. ruth's determination and unselfish service. kate. then my mind went dark... let's just take the train i'll meet up with the band in the morning... they just play tragic and the phone's ringin... let's just keep keep singin... i got a hunger and i can't seem to get full... do ya like to hurt i do i do then hurt me......