what a beautiful way to break your heart

today for but a moment i was in Finland again traversing the long musky hallways of the underground dark changing rooms. white and pin stripes and plasic keys and old school european story. the underground creepy hospital maze. where nothing but a morgue, laundry, storage, garbage, or an ancient star wars set should belong. and i walked there alone. and i smiled and sighed and longed for the cafeteria with pirkko and the chocolate walks in the brisk through ponds forests universities penquins and graffiti bridges. ahhhhhh bicycles and rain and singing and sunsets at 11pm. tulips and accents and fluid language and blonde. saunas and foreigners.