wanna be the surgeon who cuts you open, who fixes all of life's mistakes

more dreams. with schroeders and others preparing for a wedding. will was there. i think he and ruthy were getting married; i talked to him in my parents living room, the front room. ruth was there. will was a little out of it. he looked sick too, like swollen and sutured. but he was half-coherent, and i remember being like, 'what does ruth mean life was better with will--- he's still here?' i was running late to get dressed in a bridesmaid dress, i think. there was some gathering with many random people before and some seafood asian dish, picking through, and some sweet rice thing..