tenderness
from and old grouch and how much I love old people. and they like me too:)
the moon tonight and the clear stars and the California hills forming but a dark strong sillouette against that murky periwinkle or was it indigo sky. indigo. with ashy smokey periwinkle colored fog that lingers above those hills like it's scared to leave the comfort of those sharp and yet gentle curves. with the sparkling stars and a moon that truly produces light. light by which i can see. and dance. and sing. and imagine. and look for that broom to sweep the kitchen. like despite the fog the sky is clearer than i've ever seen. and to see a dozen deer right there, feet away, frozen in that cold moonlight.
my fortune cookie tonight. my favorite shoes and how they make me feel like dancing. beginning to feel comfortable. like I'm in perhaps the best place I've ever been. not geography, though... no but me. I am in the most touch with God and what He's doing in my life personally that I've been in awhile. I've been so challenged, and I've been so changed--ever since I got here. It's not been easy, nor will it be, but I'm so excited. about building a life here, who I may meet in such a city, how I'll become a nurse here and how I'm ready for those adventures.
i've been kicking my fears and defeats lately in exponential ways. do i still suck and have a long way to go? duh. but it's going to be OK. really, it all is. New Orleans, cancer, and beleive me these touch personally. Whatever the heck it is, it's going to be OK. why? because life goes on, because God is eternal, because we don't matter. and yet we do to God and that is why it's going to be OK. that is why 'hope springs eternal'. that's not wishy wash humanistic optimism or fishy blind faith. that's truth, and I've seen it. there are no lost causes. i've seen more than one back on their feet, and that includes me. lost but for Him. alive because He lives and the future is not so bleak in light of that. will i screw my life up? every day at least in one way. but who cares. God is there to forgive, pick up the pieces and put them right. make something better out of them.
yet I pray for grace each day that I may not hurt others in my frailties and faults.
the moon tonight and the clear stars and the California hills forming but a dark strong sillouette against that murky periwinkle or was it indigo sky. indigo. with ashy smokey periwinkle colored fog that lingers above those hills like it's scared to leave the comfort of those sharp and yet gentle curves. with the sparkling stars and a moon that truly produces light. light by which i can see. and dance. and sing. and imagine. and look for that broom to sweep the kitchen. like despite the fog the sky is clearer than i've ever seen. and to see a dozen deer right there, feet away, frozen in that cold moonlight.
my fortune cookie tonight. my favorite shoes and how they make me feel like dancing. beginning to feel comfortable. like I'm in perhaps the best place I've ever been. not geography, though... no but me. I am in the most touch with God and what He's doing in my life personally that I've been in awhile. I've been so challenged, and I've been so changed--ever since I got here. It's not been easy, nor will it be, but I'm so excited. about building a life here, who I may meet in such a city, how I'll become a nurse here and how I'm ready for those adventures.
i've been kicking my fears and defeats lately in exponential ways. do i still suck and have a long way to go? duh. but it's going to be OK. really, it all is. New Orleans, cancer, and beleive me these touch personally. Whatever the heck it is, it's going to be OK. why? because life goes on, because God is eternal, because we don't matter. and yet we do to God and that is why it's going to be OK. that is why 'hope springs eternal'. that's not wishy wash humanistic optimism or fishy blind faith. that's truth, and I've seen it. there are no lost causes. i've seen more than one back on their feet, and that includes me. lost but for Him. alive because He lives and the future is not so bleak in light of that. will i screw my life up? every day at least in one way. but who cares. God is there to forgive, pick up the pieces and put them right. make something better out of them.
yet I pray for grace each day that I may not hurt others in my frailties and faults.
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