notes and life with momma

Thanks Mom, our God is so big, and i only spelled diarrhea right because i did spell check yesterday, but now i think i got it:) I don't know, it's almost hard to imagine God actually listening to all our prayers. It's like all the OT and some NT images of God as being so sovereign and holy, it's like I feel like He must be ticked at me. THen there's Jesus. And while He was hardcore too, He was also so human and so close. Tom said to me last night, "don't you think Jesus must have been the coolest guy" and i was like "Yes, I wish we could all hang out!". Sometimes a child-like faith is the only way the two images of God can make sense. Or an Aslan. He's big and scary but He's good and so we offer up our feeble and silly requests because we believe He loves us and cares about our crappy humannes. And even knows a little what it's like.

I am really glad I called sick today, my head still throbs a little but the D is getting better (so far). But I have SO much to do, deposit checks, mail bills, clean up this pig sty, was the car; stuff I planned to do yesterday but slept all day instead. So, and since I had the sick day hours, I am so glad I took it. I don't get sick much, I'm not eating ANY more cookie dough, and I'm not going to lie and use sick days for other things, sooo I don't feel guilty at all. Plus I called last night to give them 9 hours or so to find a replacement. And I am also planning to nap later on, take it easy. But then if tonight I am fully well (like ready for my 2 day!! workweek) I am going to hear Mindy talk about her trip to Sudan! I thought i wouldn't go b/c I was working today and tomorrow and having that in between would be too much! But now, if i am well, i am going. So being sick can be a blessing in disguise. But i'm still done with raw eggs!

love u
mar

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>Wowww, score!!! How cool about Tom and Denmark! Awesome! I'm so sad you're sick, but I'm so glad you called in, you can't go to the hospital with diahrhea, however you spell that. I bet you spelled it right!! I'm zipping through plan B, should be able to mail it to you by this weekend, hopefully. i am amazed that these guys came to the thing at church, that is so incredibly awesome; our God is sooooo big. You are right, I always pray, but to pray knowing that He will answer, and to have hope for that, knowledge that He means us "good"; that is the prayer of faith. I love you. Rest well, my dear. love, Mom
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> >Hey Ma,
> >I went to the thing at church tonight with Jung Hee and guess who was
> >there??? TOM and his partner ALex, from Denmark! Just as i had prayed! They
> >both really enjoyed it and bought the book and like City Church. I am just
> >praying for them and was thrilled to see my 2 favorite gay guys ever. We
> >had some good really good discussion about God and while it's still so hard
> >and i don't have it figured out, it can't be a bad thing for them wanting to
> >know more about God, right? Sooo and about prayer, it's not that i wasn't
> >praying before at all, but i was more like tossing prayers up rather than
> >believing in its power. Like now I pray because I know God answers. A lesson
> >i learn and must relearn! So, but I started feeling all hot and dizzy and
> >then stomach crampy tonight at church and so on the way home i called in
> >sick for tomorrow (paid day off wooohoo) and was so glad i did b/c had more
> >diarrhea when i got home:( So i will sleep all day tomorrow. I made some
> >chicken rice soup and bought some gatorade at the 7-11 on the way home, and
> >am trying to stay hydrated. Tom was like "girl, go get some gatorade, look
> >you don't even have veins" :) Us nurses. Dehydration makes your veins go
> >flat. OH, but the book is by ANglican Bishop N.T. Wright from the UK and
> >it's called Simply Christian. Apparently ANn Rice became a CHristian
> >recently after reading it. So i'll tell ya bout it. LOVE U
> >mar