truth is stranger than fiction

and more tragic

and more interesting

cried tonight

watching

discovery's

tsunami.

little sri lankan boy. man whose kids died. video footage. they don't have the technology and consequent warning. makes me detest our prosperity (and greed more importantly). sick. and since 2 weeks life never will be the same. all is changing. it's hard to continue or care. don't want the struggly near slow changes that are reality. but extreme dynamic. drop all and move to developing world. am distraught and pissed at life. i don't understand it. why. God why. and why. how is suffering beneficial, or worth it. remotely worth it.