Like I have jet lag all the time

Sometimes lately I’ve felt like I’m losing it. Then I wonder how/why this is possible when I only work 3 times a week. But then I remember how I don’t sleep well in between and I have nightmares involving work and how badly I miss my family and how terribly I’ve dealt with Will being sick. And then I remember that this summer was the first one in my entire life in which I didn’t swim in the pool on Bancroft drive. Then I remember why I feel like a wreck some of the time.