IF WE COULD LEARN HOW TO FREEZE OURSELVES ALIVE WE COULD LEARN TO LEAVE THESE BURDENS TO BURN

i have this sense of returning. cycles, repetition, coming back to what i thought i left behind. old sorrows, old burdens, old desires. things i thought were overcome but now creeping their way back into my consciousness. Still beating around the old issue of God's sovereignty and Will's demise; Ruth's pain and loneliness, God's plan and His unknown reason, my wrestling with God and inability to understand his purposes....