I could tell you the truth like I used to and not be afraid of sounding fake

difficulty believing God is good: 2 friends died young and tragically

concept of thinking that I said/discussed something with someone b/c i went over it so much in my head. realizing I didn't say it. what was Anna's statement along these lines about guys with poor communication skills?

music and the people I love make my heart swell/overflow. also nature/exercise. make me feel God's love. so i need to do these. I want to (eventually) write songs. Need to learn piano and keep singing.

so many great 30+ yr old singles in this town-- why aren't they getting married? am I dooomed the same fate if i stay here? i don't think so--"'Cause I don't know what tomorrow brings.
It is alive with such possibilities." I carry a twinge of excitement and hope. I don't think I'm "doomed" but I have no idea-- I feel so invested here and would adore staying-- yet I could sort of (though sadly) see dropping/changing it all (sudan??) --- then the 30% happened and I realized I need to keep my job to help them

i have a lot of love in my heart/great affection for my guy friends. our discussion of the greatness having a sister has on the making of a guy...

realized lives may depend on my being sharp, well-rested at work... scary mistakes can happen