i've been a fool

i've been naive
i've been idealistic

and then real life comes and knocks you upside the head
or flat on your a**
and i've made mistakes

and i know I've lived and striven for all the wrong things
and i know I can attain none of them
and that life's not about these anyhow

so tonight i just danced
i had so much fun
i stopped caring what people thought
(and i wasn't drunk)
and i tried to include the newcomers
and people's friends
and make sure everyone had fun

i lose sight of this and start trying to build up myself
so often

but i recall that this is where it's at.

live for others and trust God
God forgive me
change me
make me new and whole again

help me trust and follow


I want to be someone who is gracious
above all other things

so that those with whom i come in contact
will breathe a breath of fresh air
of heavenly grace
of comfort and peace and forgiveness
for them to be reassured and loved

for them to experience God's goodness
his graciousness in me

forgive me God for wanting my own glory
use me to point people to your great love

and i am SO blessed to have such wonderful friends
who LOVE me, even though i've been a basket case
and a very selfish one, at that