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Monday, October 12, 2009

"There's nothing you have done that denies you access to this life."

From City Church today:

When you think that you've lost everything
You find out you can always lose a little more
I'm just goin' down the road feeling bad
Tryin' to get to heaven before they close the door

-Dylan

A moment of conscious triumph makes one feel that after this nothing will really matter; a moment of realized disaster makes one feel that this is the end of everything. But neither feeling is realistic, for neither event is really what it is felt to be. The circumstances of triumph will not last, and the moment of triumph will sooner or later give way to moments of disappointment, strain, frustration, and grief, while the circumstances of disaster will prove to have in them seeds of recovery and new hope...The mature person... knows this and does not forget it."
-J.I. Packer

talk to yourself rather than listen to yourself
a vision that you live by and therein find HOPE

Perhaps nothing is what it seems? Which is a good thing, if you ask me. "I confess there appears to be way more darkness than light" -Patty Griffin


Romans 12:9&12
"Hate what is evil, hold fast to what is good....Rejoice in hope, be patient in suffering, persevere in prayer."



Actively seek out and rub the salve of that hope into your wounds. God's love is bigger than me.

Be patient in suffering. He never promised ease, but that we're not alone.

Persevere in PRAYER-- going to, accessing God

Generously give and extend hospitality to strangers--you write no one off. there is no one that you cannot be blessed through caring for.


My awesome friends are happily and successfully talented at taking my mind off my angst, but a brief convo with Melis tonight had me tearing up. I still want to be perfect. I still want to feel like I have something of myself to stand on. I want to feel like I'm not a piece of crap. But God never promised to fix all my flaws or solve all my problems. He just promised to redeem irrevocably and one day to make everything right. In this waking life I will never be perfect. But I don't have to earn his love. Truth is freedom.


Psalm 34:18
"The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and saves the crushed in spirit."

4 Comments:

  • someone, maybe David Dark, said in that vanderbilt podcast think of jesus as the wound, not just as keeping an eye on it or in the healing, he is the wound.

    By Blogger mjaneb, at 11:39 PM  

  • i don't understand what that means, please do elaborate...

    By Blogger marcelle, at 11:23 PM  

  • ummm like, Jesus is reworking our ideas of good. he doesn't just bring Good through the healing. If the wound is there, it's good, maybe? He is our opening?

    By Blogger mjaneb, at 11:58 PM  

  • wow. i hope so. i know he is with us in the darkness, the valley, the screwed up places we dig ourselves into. if he's not, i can't climb out; but he is. rework my ideas, please!

    By Blogger marcelle, at 12:36 AM  

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