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dreamed of video games, swimming pools, and betrotheds. decisions, marriage, a non-english speaking grandma who disproved. who was i marrying? trying to get my computer to play SMB3 and being at some public pool. christine tarn was with me digging through green rubbermaids and i was tossing marshmallows. there were patients too... i was in my room deciding on earrings and husbands. determining which were for the long haul. thinking about my betrothed and how "you just know"... i said i think so, but i don't know. knowing this meant i shouldn't proceed but there was this pressing impatience, like i had imposed a deadline for myself and was running out of options..