and i'm still reeling

the past 8 days have been utterly surreal.
and my body needs care.
i am physically and emotionally spent.
somehow the tri and my birthday and this crazy work sh*t, and the sudan deadline all coincided in one fateful week.
i feel ambushed.
like i was just going along at life.
and then suddenly everything has changed and is changing before my eyes.
i feel lost, tossed, tumbling.
i feel hurt, betrayed, guilty, overwhelmed, and exhausted.
life used to be controllable, though pleasantly out of control.
somehow i've gone over that edge.
i don't feel myself.
i've been visibly down in front of friends, obviously grouchy to coworkers, and carried a blank stare around when walking these streets.
i don't want to be lifeless.
i'm so run down and overextended right now.
learning the hard way how to say no.
find myself so distracted, preoccupied.
zoning out of conversations i so want to partake in.
my mind/soul is overflowing. i have no room for it.
don't want to miss my life flying by, but i'm dazed.

time flies away down a clean interstate. i'm staring drunk at a map.
so i let my hair down for the second time now for the final time now i've had my fun.
and there's no returning to those places we've been just repeat our slogan never again.