i have no way of knowing, the truth with time dissolves

i keep going over my decision in my head
the fear makes me question
the uncertainty makes me wonder
if i did the right thing....
sleep deprivation hindering my thinking even now

Mark 14:22-26
Burning for that day when we will feast with no more sorrow or sickness or sin

Early the week of passover, Jesus judges the temple
judged it as CORRUPT
"there's money lenders inside the temple, this crystal city's gonna fall apart
when all their power turns into vapor, if I miss you then that's my fault..
Hello, patterns in my mind now moving slow,
sorrow all across the surface row..... alone.."

God I throw myself at your feet and beg for your mercy, forgiveness, deliverance
help me please
my spirit is willing but my flesh is so weak