why does it have to be UNCLEAR

shades of gray
painstaiking halfway answers
one day out so that i still have timet to act
so i have to make the calls and hope for responses, today
DAYUM
i. hate. this.
reservations about the ministry position
fears financial
should i apply for per diem
WTF
i am lost.
i am weary
why does it have to be toil
can i just have a clear cut answer what the ell i'm supposed to do with my life???
what am i supposed to DO?