suddenly gripped with fear
talked to mom today about how this morning was the first moment i thought "what am i going to do?... and am I really ready to quit my job of 4 years???" *GULP*
talked about how if you're not actively seeking God and good influences in your life, you are by default acquiescing to he who prowls like a roaring lion looking to devour. entropy. we self-destruct. our wiring is sin and that's why he must DELIVER us from evil. we are so weak and so prone to sin. nothing's neutral. i wish it was. i wish i hadn't learned from personal experience that this is the way it works. but there's no such thing as taking a break. can you stop the swinging pendulum that is time? no. we can't have that kind of lazy respite from the fight. the never-ending journey and struggle that is this life. the crucial eternal-consequence-laden battle that is our Christian walk. everything we do/say/think here echoes in eternity, whether we like it or not. nothing is neutral. nothing is static. nothing is without consequence. sigh. how many times have we bought the lies telling us otherwise. i've made such mistakes in my life. deliver us from evil, Father.
"prone to wander Lord I feel it,
prone to leave the God I love.
Here's my heart o take an seal it
seal it for thy courts above."
talked about how if you're not actively seeking God and good influences in your life, you are by default acquiescing to he who prowls like a roaring lion looking to devour. entropy. we self-destruct. our wiring is sin and that's why he must DELIVER us from evil. we are so weak and so prone to sin. nothing's neutral. i wish it was. i wish i hadn't learned from personal experience that this is the way it works. but there's no such thing as taking a break. can you stop the swinging pendulum that is time? no. we can't have that kind of lazy respite from the fight. the never-ending journey and struggle that is this life. the crucial eternal-consequence-laden battle that is our Christian walk. everything we do/say/think here echoes in eternity, whether we like it or not. nothing is neutral. nothing is static. nothing is without consequence. sigh. how many times have we bought the lies telling us otherwise. i've made such mistakes in my life. deliver us from evil, Father.
"prone to wander Lord I feel it,
prone to leave the God I love.
Here's my heart o take an seal it
seal it for thy courts above."
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