trancendence!

God help me! I'm stressed and overwhelmed and exhausted. SO DAMN much going on right now! Life changes, big decisions, huge happenings. Feels like "nothing but work work work all the time". But then I recall that yesterday I frickin PLAYED. We played like kids all day. "dorm life" l'bert said, but way better. I concur. College with $. It just always comes in bursts! All play or all work. I love the travel possibilities/flexibilities and yet the extremes are staggering and my inability to REST adequately, in the way Noel was describing today. I have to force myself "i keep running around, but all i want is to lay motionless". Makes me wonder if it's time to get out of the hospital. But it's good $, good experience, decent schedule, benefits, blah blah blah.. God please guide me!!!!!!!!!!! My mind is racing. I feel grateful but overwhelmed. Needy and fallen. Resting but depleted.