not something i'd recommend but it is one way to live

it's hard to get enough rest with these frenetic thoughts. my mind is 1000 beats per minute. hard to be about others, which is so what i want to be, and what gives my life meaning. i'm wrapped up in my own confusion, my own questioning, my own fears. find it hard to trust God. not sure why. things that used to be no-brainers are now the most difficult things to live/believe. transition.