"i told him i want to fall in love"

--Lynn

mesmerizing mutations

"a record so haunted and spare.. familiar metaphor of life-as-bitter-decay ... get assaulted by the sweet sounds... still retains the pathological Beckesthetic that short circuts your objectivity. wherever it's at...here is a list of subjective medicines; let us start our convalescence.... passion and melancholy. huanting and disturbing. humble and sweet..."
"pushing things forward for myseltf, staying awake creatively..."
"why does guero have such an air of doom and disquietude alongside its upbeat larks? Eerie dissonances suggest grotesque shapes, and Beck's ominous soulful singing and recurring images of death, ditches, and bones give parts of the album a blasted, apocalyptic tone..."

aw, the last day i lived in Nashville:)

flashback fantabulous

Eternally curious

Tired old asylum enemy of all that numbs

One night during college when I should've been reading my big turquoise 50 pound med-surg book I decided to write down all the main images/words to Beck's Mutations. Which I lOVE. That CD. the eerie haunting sticky smelly decrepit aura it gives is so nice.

Accident coincidence vain attempt oven infections meats nauseous heart wretchedness drone banged infidels stench backwards river impose alone blown shiver black balloons reaching out for a rotten egg has-beens stormy weather racket wildlives are so mild fluorescent puritan stare carouse impotent and blind pain cancelled beg dug mangroves shadows of sulfur dried meat dust of opiates syphilis patients fear has a glare lazy flies hovering creed hideous game vanishes vanity of slaves debris son dust halls garbage pails drain on you fade shaded rooms tongues are full of hellish tales throwaway chain gang used cruel devil blame way you lose these wasted blues hangman’s rope drain curse cold brains soul darkened jails rusty blade pen grave untouched unglued a trail of disaster abandoned hearse corroded to the bone lay upon the gravel obscene grave weary derelesque confections looking back on some dead world that looks so new misers wind hollow liquid abrasive distortion derelict boulevards lonesome whistle senile revelry tearful gaze turns away perfect day to lock yourself inside lazy desert mangled drown in a convalescent bliss static in your mind broken bottles and tangled webs dust clouds crumbs fall out of the sky wander funeral fire holy mountains look so tired falling apart at the seams death creeps in slow decrepit and gray wrecked dead ends dregs moon night birds will cackle rotting like apples on trees dead melodies brothel of fake energy graveyard tired night is useless lie in hideous shards snakes have gone crazy to night sentiment strangers doldrums cinders laugh at the moon gazing alone dredging the night newfangled wasteland plague deranged cold and vacant folly desolate wind moonlight wilderness disheveled withered dream sifted left-over nightmare rain glimmering

more and more. you love it.

welcome back to California

You know you are in San Francisco when you can't find an apartment that's NOT "420 friendly", your cousin's mother's group has their picture taken naked in a pool with their babies, and the most popular soccer leauge is non-competitive and utterly non-scoring. Never could these get by in the South.

"my name is lauren, i'm the big sister!!" _rebecca in a deep voice arms waving stiffly in the air

"I'f I marry someone dumber than me, our kids will need special ed, and I can't handle that."

Lauren on breaking sterile technique

So I'm like, I'm an idiot and you're a neurosurgeon

what the flying

piano haunting alarm insane asylum
R Kelly part 6 pb&J sandwich
1 ft in the grave
Perry Ben Kweller and the Doors. it's music, he hears it
tickle tickle, now I just feel demeaned
plantatrons
boop boop bi doop-I don't know where I'm going with this
Melissa, as the middle child, you are the fulcrum upon which the equilibrium of the family is maintained (and he can't get an A in vocab? teacher come on!)

dad

entropy repentance futility interim blackest darkness defective and unlovable chilling

nights that soothe

and when the days postitively sparkle