Don't be so amazing or I'll miss you too much

Everything gets smaller now the further that I go
Towards the mouth and the reunion of the Known and the Unknown
Consider yourself lucky if you think of it as home
You can move mountains with your misery if you don't
If you don't

It comes to me in fragments, even those still split in two
Under the leaves of that old Lime Tree I stood examining the fruit
Some were ripe and some were rotten, I felt nauseous with the truth
There will never be a time more opportune

So I just won't be late
The window closes, shock rolls over in a tidal wave
And all the color drains out of the frame
So pleased with a daydream that now living is no good
I took off my shoes and walked into the woods
I felt lost and found with every step I took

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Don't forget what you've learned all you give is returned
And if life seems absurd what you need is some laughter
And a season to sleep and a place to get clean
Maybe Los Angeles, somewhere no one is expecting
On a detox loft through a Glendale Park over sidewalk chalk
Someone wrote in red, "start over"
So I muffled my scream on an Oxnard beach
Full of fever dreams that scare you sober
Into saltless dinners

Take the fruit from the tree, break the skin with your teeth
Is it bitter or sweet? All depends on your timing
Like a meeting of chance with the train station glance
Many lifetimes had past in a instant reminded
Hear the chimes, did you know that the wind when it blows
It is older than Rome and our joy and our sorrow

from last week. friends and goodness.

training for the tri and just sharing life with people in such an incredible place as SF. Sharing my "mr grumpy" christians deserve to be tortured story for a point related to John 2 and getting a laugh. Laughing at myself and striving for health, physically, professionally, relationally, emotionally, spiritually. Growing and ever learning. Liking myself more and becoming more and more comfortable in my skin, even as I see my flaws even more truly. Inspired by music and friendships and family. I am grateful. I have so very much to be thankful for.

rain for days

Wonderfulness: Jenny and Jung Hee holding me accountable to reading scripture. Jenny's challenge at CG last night to me to read 2 chapters before an episode of a Kdrama, and Jung Hee holding me to it today; fun laughing about the dearth of k-boys round here, and she saying she get's first dibs-- won't be competing "with a white girl" -- aa being startled and me being like, yeah she can totally talk to me like that. JH calls it like it is, and we're cool like that. Haha, hilarious. JH saying "we've got to find you a good guy, Marcelle, I'm gonna be keeping my eye out for one for you". She's so good to me. That i'm such an anomaly in my preferences. Discussed masculinity and gender roles defined. Quirky humor. Laughed our heads off. Good talk too with Aa about compatibility and what "flaws" you can and cannot live with in a potential spouse. How you don't know until it's too late to avoid getting hurt. How the most incredible art, be it words, music, images, comes out of deep/intense pain. How people are a mystery, individually and in groups. Literature and music. It was a good evening.

chilling and powerful

the sound quality's not the best, but this song is so good. i love her voice, and this movie (Once) is full of great music. WOW. I can't believe it took me this long to finally watch it.
the song starts a bit over a minute in...

like singing the harmony with this one

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b8w4iTBPXn4&feature=related

i read the body count i read the paper and now it's written all over my face

no one ever plans to sleep out in the gutter; sometimes that's just the most comfortable place

fri v mon both fun but always that much more so when round. ain't no sunshine when i'm gone

cause it's all in your mind and i wanted to be i wanted to be wanted to be your good friend

enjoyable v stomach can't bear to miss out on the fun feeling

so i'm eating drinking writing singing every day i'm on the clock, my mind races with all my longings but can't keep up with what i've got. well i could have been a famous singer if i had someone else's voice but failures always sounded better lets f it up boys make some noise