balance attainable

i need to learn more self-control and self-discipline in my life. though being so chill is good to an extent, there comes a point where it's just disobedient/lazy. sometimes you have to do what you don't feel like (or NOT do what you do feel like). I used to be super so, but reformed my ways to super relaxed. And it's a good change, a mentally healthier one, though physically less-so. and i want to find that balance between releasing control to God and then having the self-control that's obedience. the answer is always God, in Him. it seems too simple to be practical. but it always is, more simple than i guess i'd like to admit. because then why do i struggle so?

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