last night

she told him she wants to fall in love

fun times at kiki, then CG, then Irma's karaoke. scheduling at 3am with chan. fun times with work friends, awkward group getting to know you's, movies, the beach, the park, being alone.

prayer. re: work.

O God please help me because i do not have the patience for my patients. there isn't enough in the world. so burnt out on work right now. Please help me get through. give me strength and positivity. help me see them as you would see them and respond in a way that honors you. help me to turn to you during the madness and help me hang in and persevere. I feel fairly confident that after my "one more year" i will move to nashville and work post op. Hoping for more normal people and longing for the nearness and love and support of my family. SIGH. Learning learning learning. help me Lord.

and the crowd thought i was hillarious

polar bears scrolls beck Mel's dream

tonight i dropped a plasic bowl of fruit. i started by saying shhhhhhhh-- - then stopped. i chuckled and said, that was kinda cool. actually beautifu

l and artistic and joyful/jolly how the grapes and canteloupe triangles spring boing bounced into the air in all directions and rolled/splatted on the wood floor/ kitchen linoleum/ china cabinet doors. i liked it.

though about work this morning. thinking at like 9am "I hate my life" and by the end like whatever. it's over. not exactly an exuberant work of art, but things yet to be thankful for. persevering rather than despairing is always fruitful. Fruitful. he he.