don't think too hard marcelle,

don't sentimentalize,
don't reflect.
just don't do it
it's lame and you'll fall apart.
be strong. you must

already stripped down

already the apt feels empty. ugly desolate, un-lived in. or about to be. even the next few weeks will be so lonely so hollow and sad. i'll be fine. but it's the end of an era. the end of the world as i know it. my one and only partner in the crime of moving to California moves out this week. and it's all very sudden and rushed and anti-climactic. and sad. really strange and weird.

ONE

of three

nobody comprehends

either the emotions or the stress


and if they have answers for me, then they didn't understand the question


and i feel so so sad and lonely.



i
ve been grieving for many things for the past month or so. and i need to see my family. What a LONG work week lies ahead of that.