diversity

It was my first real day on the floor. and 50% of my patients were homosexual and HIV+. welcome to san francisco. we're not in kentucky anymore. been thinking about the conversation i had with my preceptor, my patient and his boyfriend about helping others around the world, about being in tune and not close-minded or self-absorbed. fundamental christians attacked by all as the most closeminded and idiotic. ouch. how do I be a Christian here-- associating myself with this "fundamentalist" idea will only drive others away I feel, but quietly keeping my mouth shut is sacrelig. so where's the line to tread? Jesus loves sinners-- I am not to judge, that's not my job-- but to love, to be conformed to the Lord's will, searching His scriptures to determine how He wants me to live MY life, being as blameless as I possibly can, living in continual repentance, focusing on and detesting my OWN sin, is the only thing I know how to do. and the problem of suffering to an unbeleiving world. how?

God I need your wisdom and guidance and discernment every day-- on loving my co-workers, in being a light, in obeying and following-- God I struggle so much in knowing how--show me how to repent daily-- reveal all my sins to me and make me broken before you--slay me in repentance to you-- give me wisdom and discernment, perception, compassion, peace, love, unselfishness, bold stoutheartedness-- make me resourceful and not lazy, efficient and helpful-- lead me in your truth-- please change and mold me-- please take away my fear and uncetainty-- show me how I can serve and love you and others-- lead me to those hearts that are hungry for you-- make me not afraid of man's disapproval-- make me wise as a snake and innocent as a dove.