Made alive with laughter

Saturday, November 04, 2006

pumpkins, smokey moon, lit windows, new SF neighborhood, sunset on the ocean, new hill of green and plants with falling down wooden fences to explore,

dark dead end streets, divided levels, and indigo night. missing and mourning bancroft, ruth and willis, wishing i see their faces, coming home to a package from them, jars of clay and connecting with my longing for God rediscovered. a rush of emotions including new ones. i love when i'm in a new place than i've ever been both physically and mentally.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

i am a cracker upper alright

"I dropped my phone and it fell apart, but you're still there"--mom

eeeverybody. i like people. specially funny people and weird ones. and who are honest. or creative. able to be themselves and embrace all the messed-uppedness it humanly entails. and truthfully i like wholesome genuine people a lot too. perhaps because i myself am all of these things... why's it always ultimately about ourselves? lame.


I'm an idealist and an introvert and love people of all sorts-- diverse backgrounds styles etc. I love little old people. I'm indecisive, and laid back and content and simple--with an exhaustingly overactive mind. I love newness and travel, despise feeling stagnant. like science, outdoors, art, and water, sad songs and crying, but am absurdly cheerful. My favorite color is yellow and I love tulips and rain and all things that haunt. I daydream often and my night dreams are vivid, colorful, wildly bizzare and oft disturbing. Every one of my college roomates told me independently that i'm unlike anyone they've ever met. wasn't sure how to take that one any of the 3 times it occured:) my friends make fun of me for being the happiest person they know, most gullible, and for loving fruit to an insane extent. not much of a musician or artist, but admire devastatingly those who are. oh and seems too obvious in my life to even mention, but in case you don't know me, God and my family are most important of all.