GOING HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

24 hours from now i'll be ready to catch the same train as today. except tomorrow i will pass the hospital by and keep going. and going and going. east. home. i am so excited i might explode. can i make it through another 14 hour day first? i might die before i ever see home;) but i'm going to try.

weighed down

i am so weary from this heavy load and i'm so tired i could cry. my burdens lifted lifted up. now i can hold my head high. i used to be as blue as the sky.

love the guys i work with. and the ladies, for the most part. and am so drained by the incessant needs and unknowns of my job. i still feel so new and dumb and slow. when someone points it out, it sucks.

rainy season

it's windy, blustery, and wet-- but not cold. i love it here. mysteriously foggy, rain blowing in sideways, and yet more wind than rain but sort of mysterious and invigorating. i love rain, always have always will, and the fact that it's 60 degrees out, makes it most pleasant. i'd take this over cold and dry any day. san francisco. man i'm glad to be here.

and koreans

rain and flowers and dancing and fog and the beach in the mist and fog and the big tire lodged in the sand, and church and pesto and driving through the city when NO one is out. SIGH the beautiful things this day was made of. I am full and blessed and this may be the first time i've ever felt like this besides when with my 6 on willow creek. God is gracious. He is the giver of all good things. and he has showered me today.