Made alive with laughter

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

stolen words: de melix

"I just wanted to say, Liz I"m so sorry about Steven. I just couldn't muster it. And with all the issues with my mouth words, I fear being translated incorrectly/communicating ineffectively. I didn't say it.
One.

Lately and frequently, I will wake up and remember what I did last night and it seems like a dream. Mind you I have been sober for the last two or three weeks. It's like I still don't believe this is my life. I still don't believe this is where I am. The soul is not connecting to the brian. I see it all, but i refuse it. It's so weird and it rattles me a little.
Two."


hits me hard.

kittens will fight. mel wowwwwwww

wow. wow wow wow wow. truth left and right my melix. very insightful and amazing self-awareness. is healthy and especially recognizing self-destructive ways of thinking or just the need to get outside us and be uncomfortable. we are all (or should be!) people in transition. unless we think that the way we "do life" is already perfect. That we understand and behave exactly completely the way we want to/ ought to ; i think that will never be true of a human being, you know? we seek comfort and sometimes that means a salad-finger existence; and we love it, right? and it can be good at times; but life is kind of supposed to be scary and brave and in all that is fulfilling too. love that of mom and you; she's right. and i've been saying for years how you are beyond your age in depth/intelligence; but yeah communication stuff. i love that you see how we can see you when listening, not just hearing your mouth words:) it's true.

Monday, December 03, 2007

an e-mail to a Kentucky friend who inquired...

As for SF, are you kidding, everyone here is our age. Seriously, where are the children? You get a few old little chinese ladies thrown in the mix, but otherwise, SF is MADE of young professionals. Naw, that's exaggerating, b/c SF is really diverse, but truth is, people like 24-35 are most abundant.
And i live in the city. Smack dab in the middle geographically, right by Golden Gate Park. UCSF is centrally located, and i live near the hospital. "downtown" is focused on the east side of the city (the bay side): financial district, tourist stuff. Friends of mine grew up in families on the west/ocean side, and i'm somewhere in between. I love my neighborhood. And sf is FULL of awesomely hip and chill places.
Cost of living, i wont lie, is STEEEEP. Rent is easily in the 2000s for a 2 bedroom, you'd be hard pressed to get a studio for less than 1200. But RN salary makes up for it here. It's like 60% higher here than in Nashville, and since i walk/bike/take muni, i save $$$ on car expenses (i don't have a car here).
SF is so awesome. Nursing itself is SO challenging, but can be so rewarding too. It took me close to 2 years before i really liked my job. The learning curve can be pretty steep in a fast-paced teaching hospital, but now that i'm settled, it's so much better. And i feel like i can really help people now that i feel competent in my skills/knowledge and all.
So yeah, that's SF and nursing. I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO spoiled here too. The CA state ratios mean we have no more than 5 patients, whereas it can be twice that elsewhere. Also the weather is nice (though you must like fog), like 50s -70s year round, people are so multicultural and conscientious about health and the environment and on and on. It's hard to leave once you live here!

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i am a human in transition

aren't we all? or do any among us feel that we've achieved all there is? we've got it all under control; we're exactly the person we want to be? or aren't we all in transition?

quiz:
tell me something all your friends know about you
something that none of them do
candle #
living/dream occupation
what is family {exponential}
what motivates your life