thoughts

today was GORGEOUS. Sunshine. 70s the beach. practicing IVs with Liz and Diana. Sigh. I need to sleep. But I'd rather blast the strokes, watch beck, and smile. Lord. please order my misguided steps. my life is about you.

"your setting sun, your broken drum, your little drugs, never forget you"

hot pot and el camino del mar

as the nurse

so it was a little bit sink or swim. but not really. we have a great floor. it was my first day with 4 patients. I sent 3 down for various procedures, dc'd one and admitted one from ED. It was psycho, but i did it. and i'm not getting my pts confused at least! AND I got out of there b4 8pm. wow. for me wow. so i see progress. definately. not leaps and bounds exactly, but marked gradual progression. thank you Lord. I don't feel sick dread anymore. mostly nervous excitement. sort of. i dunno thank you.

tired and blessed. I pray

God please lead me; use me. Make me into the person you want me to be. Make my life NOT about me. May I serve and love and honor you. I want to please and love and know you. I want to fall in love. I want a full and abundant life. You know me inside and out and made me specially how you wanted to. Help me love myself. But love other people more. And forget myself. And make a difference in eternity. And follow you. And find your plan/path. And trust you and be filled by you. And find, find... find someone to share my life with. That's all. Thanks for Jesus. really, I mean really. I'd be so so lost.