Hey what are you gonna do when those walls come tumbling down, falling down on you

remember this guy?? and i usually detest make-up on guys. in principle i do, but these results........


Lee Dong Wook:)

BEEEEEEECCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YOU'VE DONE IT AGAIIIIINNNNNNNNNNN

I feel uptight when I walk in the city
I feel so cold when I'm at home
Feels like everything's starting to hit me
I lost my bearings ten minutes ago

Modern guilt, I'm stranded with nothing
Modern guilt, I'm under lock and key
Misapprehension turning into convention
Don't know what I've done
But I feel ashamed

Standing outside the glass on the sidewalk
These people talk about impossible things
And I'm falling out of the conversation
And I'm a pawn piece in a human shield

Modern guilt is all in our hands
Modern guilt won't get me to bed
Say what you will, smoke your last cigarette
Don't know what I've done
But I feel afraid




I've been walking on these streets so long,
I don't know where they're gonna lead anymore.
But I think I must have seen a ghost.
I don't know if it's my illusions that keep me alive.
I don't know what I've seen.
Was it all an illusion?
All a mirage gone bad?
I'm tired of evil and all that it feeds,
But I don't know.

And I've been drifting on this wave so long,
I don't know if it's already crashed on the shore.
And I've been riding on this train so long,
I can't tell if it's you or me who is driving us into the ground.
I don't know if I'm sane,
But there's a ghost in my heart
Who's trying to see in the dark.
I'm tired of people who only want to be pleased,
But I still want to please you...

And I heard of that Japanese girl
Who jumped into The Volcano.
Was she trying to make it back
Back into the womb of the world?

I've been drinking all these tears so long,
All I've got left is the taste of salt in my mouth.

I don't know where I've been,
But I know where I'm going-to that volcano.
I don't want to fall in though:
Just want to warm my bones on that fire awhile.




Some days we get a thrill in our brains
Some days it turns to malaise
You see a face in the veneer
Reflecting on the surface of fear
Because you know that we're better than that
Some days are worse than you can imagine
How am I supposed to live with that
With all these train wrecks coming at random?

Hey, what are you gonna do
When those walls are falling down
Falling down on you?

Hey, what are you gonna do
When those walls are falling down
Falling down on you?

You got warheads stacked in the kitchen
You treat distraction like it's a religion
With a rattlesnake step in your rhythm
We do the best with the souls we've been given
Because you know we're nothing special to them
We're going someplace they've already been
Trying to make sense of what they call wisdom
And this riff-raff ain't laughing with them

Hey, what are you gonna do
When those walls are falling down
Falling down on you?

Hey, what are you gonna do
When those walls are falling down
Falling down on you?

You're wearing all of the years on your face
Turn a tombstone all over place
And your heart only beats in a murmur
But your words ring out just like murder




There's a bottomless pit that we've been climbing from
Just to get on level ground
Shake your seasick legs around
Dead of winter in a logo town
Signs of life are soft and flickering
Need a bed to lay my body down
Deadweight that you carry round
The static is lulling me to sleep
Hang your clothes on a chain link fence
In a junkyard, say amen
Your mouth is full of wordless hymns
And run-on sentences

And they're helpless
And forgetting in the background
Holding nothing
And they're youthless
And pretending
With their bare hands
Holding nothing

There's a million horses dragging down a monolith
These trademarks so bereaved
Tied my leg to a barricade
With a plastic hand grenade
That tried to turn emotion into noise
Need a teleprompter for my life
Need a pipeline to the night
My body can't get no relief
And this life, it goes by fast
You're treading water in the past
Trying to re-animate something
That you can't understand

And they're helpless
And forgetting in the background
Saying nothing
And he's youthless
And forgetting
With his bare hands
Tied to nothing

And he's helpless
And forgetting in the background
Giving nothing
That is youthless
Trembling
With his bare hands
Holding nothing

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr slaysssssssssss me

modern guilt I'm under lock and key

for the record, you are not annoying

except maybe when it's all the sisters in a movie laughing.

said Perry when we discussed our straight-ness and why we can't relate to homosexuality. the reasons we couldn't be attracted to those of our own respective gender.

wanna be the surgeon who cuts you open, who fixes all of life's mistakes

more dreams. with schroeders and others preparing for a wedding. will was there. i think he and ruthy were getting married; i talked to him in my parents living room, the front room. ruth was there. will was a little out of it. he looked sick too, like swollen and sutured. but he was half-coherent, and i remember being like, 'what does ruth mean life was better with will--- he's still here?' i was running late to get dressed in a bridesmaid dress, i think. there was some gathering with many random people before and some seafood asian dish, picking through, and some sweet rice thing..

while a million objects pass through my periphery

rudely awakened from a vivid and lingering dream. a movie/life sort of happening with steve carrell having a huge nose and there was snow and vans and station wagons, children, red roses, dad, restaurants... so weird, so so so.... been "hella" fun hanging with Perry on the west coast and with family and friends. so great.